Hi, Hello, Hey

I'm at Bebear's house right now. Just picked Mama from her office then stop by here. Hihi ambil kesempatan untuk online sekejap kan. Mama dengan Along tengah berborak sambil mengumpat haha. Didn't go to school for two days as I had my PMS. Nice. Or the best word for it is, Fuck. Yeah. Oh, I won two tickets for MTV World Stage!! Bebear juga menang tiket tu. Aku tolong dia. Hihi. I ingat nak ajak Nik as well. Yela kan sebab dia minat Wonder Girls. Erk? Kinda weird isn't it? Katy Perry, Tokio Hotel and Bunkface will perform that day. Semua Nik minat. Except for Bunkface. Tapi aku rasa dia minat jugak Bunkface. Hahaha kantoi disitu. Better stop now. Nak balik rumah dah. Chiowwww

This song was on air that time. We were laying in his bed.

Him : B, I love you

Me : *remains silent*

Him : B! I love you! *screaming*

Me : Ah! I hate you!

Him : Hate that I love you kan? I tau dah hahahahahaha

Me : Dah diam kau yang

Hi, Hello

I'm at Along's house right now. I kat sini sampai hari Rabu and on wednesday I'm going to Gombak. Hehehe spend time with my love. I'm going to his house, lepaking there la kan. Plus, dia off that day so okay la. Spend time lama lama dengan dia ;)

Not smoking Marlboro Menthol anymore. I'm only smoke Sampoerna at the moment. Yeah, jadi macam dulu balik. Hahaha

This is my confession

Nik Danial Maliq is the first guy that I kissed! Like seriously. Although he is not my first love, but he's my first kissed. All this time, I save my kiss only for the right guy. I guess, he's the one eh no no he is the right guy for me. Woihh malu kot. Hahaha

I just wanna let you guys know, Nik texted me few hours ago

'B! Tadi gombak menang 5-4'

Hahahahahaha tunggu je la b hadiah kau tu. Tak lama lagi I bagi. Oh yeah, ayah bought me a perfume teheeeeeeee it's not a branded one well I didn't mind at all as long as perfume tu wangi then okay ah! Hahaha finally, I dah beli baju yang I nak tu. Jyeahhhhhhhhh! Eh, I nak pergi smoking kejap. One whole day kot I tak smoke. Erghhhhh. Chiowwwww

Hi, hello

I'm at Batu Pahat right now. Bebear tak balik Johor pulak so aku macam mati akal kejap. Macam hape je. I called Nik so many times today. He didn't pick up. He's busy I guess. At first, Syafiq yang picked up dia cakap Nik dekat bank bayar apa entah. I macam, okay nanti Akak call balik.

Sampai Batu Pahat, aku call dia lagi. He didn't answer so, okay la maybe dia mandi ke pergi ambil Mummy ke or etc la. Dalam pukul 9 lebih macam tu, I called him again. Masuk voice mail hmphhh lagi la aku macam hampa. Then I texted him,

'Kalau Gombak menang futsal, u dapat hadiah, from me. Love you'

Received pulak. Maybe dekat sini tak ada coverage la kot. Aku tidur sekejap. Around 12 something aku terjaga. Makan roti sekejap lepas tu terus call dia. Finally, dia angkat! Tapi, hm dia dah tidur time tu.

'B, tidur ke?'

'Haah'

'Oh, tak apa lah. U tidur la. Tak nak kacau u'

'Ala cakap je la. Tak apa'

'Takpe la, u tidur je la'

'Love you'

'Love you too'

Thanks for being the greatest thing in my life. Thanks for the love that you gave to me. Thanks because you taught me how to be a better person. Thanks for being there for me when I need shoulder to cry on. Thanks for making me laugh and cry in the same time. Thanks for taking my breath away whenever you're near me. Thanks for making me jealous sometimes and believe me, you're good in it. Thanks because you wake me up with a kiss on my lips when I fell asleep while you're driving. Thanks for holding my hand when we across the road. Thanks for everything. What could be better than having you in my life?

I just love you too much.

I can't stop saying bout you! I even gets blushed when I look at your picture!

I know sometimes I acting like a child. One more thing sayang, I don't care if you wanna flirt behind my back because I know by the end of the day, I'm still the only girl that takes your heart away. But I know you very well. You wouldn't do that because I believe in you :)

You know what? Hahaha wanna know a secret? My baby ni sebenarnya macam budak budak. Hahaha seriously. Sangat cepat terasa and kuat merajuk. Hahahahaha god, bila I baca balik message dia malam tadi I gelak sorang sorang. Before he text me, kita orang IM sekejap dekat Facebook. You look sooooooooooo cute when you're sulking ;)

Yesterday

23:06Nik

keluar kl tak ajak!!!!!! :(

23:06Me

lah yang

ibu baru ckp dgn i kot pagi tadi nk keluar kl

haaa

i ikut jela

jap, mana tau?

23:07Nik

bgtau jelah i kan habis kerja kul 3

tak mcm ramai plak kaum keluar arini

23:07Me

i balik pukul 1 lebih yang

oh hehehe yeh?

23:08Nik

hmm

takpelah

23:08Me

alahhhhhhh

jgn ah mcm ni

23:09Me

yang?

23:09Nik

ye?

23:10Me

esok ptg i balik johor

23:11Nik

oh ok

take care lah

23:11Me

sampai habis cuti sekolah

23:11Nik

hmm yelah

siapa nak jumpa i pun

23:12Me

yang

jgn la mcm ni

mcm la ada org nk jumpa i jugak kan

23:12Nik

i nak sgt jumpa u b

i tggu off day je

off day i dah dkt

tapi u nak blk jb

i mean jhr

23:13Me

u off bila?

23:13Nik

cukup 7 hari kerja dpt ah cuti

i dah 5 hari kerja

23:14Me

on sunday la u off?

23:15Nik

sabtu or jumaat

gitu lah

baru ingat nak lepak ngan u ke

but u r goin back

so its ok

23:15Me

hm

alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

tak nak ah balik johor

23:16Nik

takpe b

i tak kisah

i memang selalu kalau plan mesti ada something yg block

23:18Me

jgn mcm ni b

pls

yang

jgn off tau

kejap

23:18Nik

i nak mandi jap

baru lepas workout

23:22Me

okay

23:22Nik

rumah i jadi rumah muay thai kesian

hahaha

23:22Me

muay thai kesian?

ade lak?

23:23Nik

i ikat bantal kat tembok i bedal

hilang stress

23:24Me

jadik pulak mcm tu?

haha

i tak nak balik johor ah

malas

23:26Nik

u nak stay mana?

23:27Me

hmm tah

kata nak mandi

23:27Nik

hehe

ok i mandi jap

Dah la psycho, bajet bagus pulak tu. Dah tu, sebok pulak nak cari gaduh dengan segala umat Nabi Adam dalam dunia ni -_____-

Today, aku dah bangun awal pagi sebab nak ikut ibu pergi KLCC hantar barang Klife tu. After dah jumpa orang tu, then dah bayar duit semua kitorang pergi food court. Melantak ah kan tapi aku tak makan -___- huahaha. I texted Nadya sebab dia pun ada kat KLCC that time. Cam nak meet up kejap la kan even rumah dia dengan aku dekat nak mampus. Hahaha well, kata BFF ;p Ok, continue. Actually Nadya pergi tengok movie dengan Kak Bel. Aku cakap ah dengan dia, aku tunggu dia kat 1901. Aku pun tunggu la dia sorang sorang sambil pusing kanan pusing kiri. Hahahaha.

Dah syok pusing pusing cuci mata, sekali nampak sorang mamat ni macam Syafiq. Aku buat tak reti jela plus aku kan rabun. Hm hm. Suddenly, ada orang jerit,

'Lynnnnnnnnn!'

Aku dah cam, woih sape pulak panggil nama aku. Sekali tengok, Abang aku -___- So lepak ah kejap dengan dia and Syafiq. Aku nampak Syafiq pakai jam Nik. Aku pun dengan selambanya cakap ah,

'Tu jam Abang Dann kan? Meh jap, akak nak.'

Syafiq bukak lepas tu dia bagi dekat aku. Aku cakap lagi,

'Kalau Abang Dann tanya, cakap jam dia dekat akak tau'

Syafiq pun,

'Ha yela kak'

Hahaha entah Nik tahu ke tak jam dia kat aku. Biarkan je la. Biarkan dia menggelupur cari jam dia. Kalau dia nak, dia amik sendiri kat aku. Hahahaha baru boleh jumpa kan? ;)

According to Nik, I'm the worst liar. Well, em em that's true -___-

Last night I was so down when my old friend told me bout Nik. Seriously, dia cakap

'Aku bukan nak hancurkan rumah tangga kau tapi time Nik dengan Nisa tu, macam ni la dia buat. Jarang contact semua. Last last Nik tu tinggalkan Nisa time trial. Nisa tu nasib baik time trial. Kau tak pasal pasal kena tinggal time SPM'

Aku pun dah macam mak aii sumpah cuak gila takut dia dump aku. Aku dah la sayang dia bagai nak mati ni. Then, aku tengok Pya online. So, aku pun mengadu dekat dia. Sebab dia je yang kenal Nik. I told her yang aku takut Nik tinggalkan aku macam mana Nik buat dekat Nisa. Then, Pya cerita la pasal Nisa tu dekat aku. Lepas Pya cerita, barulah aku lega sikit. Thanks Pya. Sumpah kalau you tak ada semalam, I tak tahu nak buat apa. Maybe sampai harini la kot I down. Haha.

Sorry sayang sebab I fikir bukan bukan.

I just opened my formspring just now. And I found this question.

do u still love nik? do u still think that he is the one for u? why u let him down? he's giving up.. pls dont let him down

i still love him. always love him. he is the one for me. it's my fault cause i let him down. if he's giving up on me, i guess the best way is well you know what. btw, i hate this kind of question

You may asked that question anonymously but baby, i tahu cara u taip macam mana. You may fool the others but not me. I know you very well yang. I tahu you yang tanya soalan ni sebab masa ni kita tengah complicated gila kan? And you need answer right? But, alhamdulillah kita still stick together and I'm thankful for that.

I remember what you wore on the first day

Answer : U pakai baju melayu warna kelabu

You came into my life and I thought 'Hey you know this could be something'

Answer : Yeah memang pun. I fall in love with you since our first met

Oh god, I can't sleep la weh. I have insomnia -___- I don't know what to do right now so I decided to update my blog A-G-A-I-N. Aku baru je lepas ym dengan Pya. Oh yeah, Pya is Anep's girlfriend while Anep is Nik's friend. Hahaha ha macam tu ah. She said that she misses Anep. Ye ah, Anep kat Mekah buat umrah. Alolololo. Kesian Pya rindu Anep eh? Nanti i bawak you pergi jumpa dia eh? Hahahahaha.

Ha, I just thought maybe on school holiday ni nak pergi jumpa Nik. Dekat rumah dia la. Nak buat suprise kat dia. Hehehe. But, currently he's working kan. Hmphhh. Kena cari the right time la kalau nak pergi pun. Alah yang, rindu sial kat you. I selalu baca all your messages, our conversation kat ym. Semua ah. Gambar you. Rindunyaaaaa :'(

Oh shit! I haven't told you right? I baru bukak profile my ex, Zen tu. Lepas tu, I baca ah wall post Yozo kat wall dia. Guess what? Zen wants me back! Weh sumpah scary kot. Ye ah, in one year semua ex aku cari aku balik. Mana tak scary sampai naik semua bulu kan? Plus, dia cakap terang terang kot kat wall post dia tu. Menyesal gila aku call dia malam tu. Aku call just nak tanya how is he, life dia okay ke tak. Tak sangka pulak jadi macam ni. Kalau Nik tahu ni, mati aku. Nik pernah cakap dekat aku macam ni,

'Semua ex kau cari kau balik kan? Huh'

Hmphh bukan salah aku. Aku tak nak pun kat ex aku tu.

Hello, Hi

Just came back from Penang. T-I-R-E-D. I'm at mama's house right now. Gonna have my dinner here. Oh yeah, Nik got a job! Happy for him. Tak kisah la kerja apa, janji kerja kan? Ibu bought me a pink kebaya for this Eid. Hahahaha kebaya? Ok lah. Eh chiow, my roti boom is waiting! Byebye

I just fed up with Nik. Seriously. Pastu tadi, dah fed up dengan dia tu sempat jugak tengok page dia. Tengok gambar dia. He still wear my necklace. Nak nangis! Rasa bersalah gila kat dia. Yela selalu fikir benda bukan bukan. Kalau dia tahu ni, mati aku kena dengan dia. I'll off to Penang tomorrow for 3 days! Wehuuu! I won't tell Nik that I'm off to Penang tomorrow. Biarkan dia cari aku pulak.

Kalau kau baca ni, I macam dah fed up. Asyik I je cari you. Dah macam orang bodoh pun ada. You tak tau apa kawan kawan I cakap. I dengar, I yang sakit hati sampai nak menangis sebab perangai you yang ignore I ni. Apa salah I sebenarnya? Nak cakap I berubah? Well hello Nik Danial, you started it first. You didn't give me your attention anymore. You berubah since you balik from Taipan. I repeat, YOU'VE CHANGED A LOT SINCE YOU CAME BACK FROM TAIPAN. Dah tu, you cakap I pulak yang berubah. I macam orang gila tunggu you punya call, text bagai. Kalau you takde credit tu I faham la. Ni kalau online pun, apa salahnya kalau you IM I? I cried so many nights because of you. Almost every single fucking night. Yet, I still love you. I just need the old you. Maybe you dah bosan dengan I kan? Yeah, I know that.

Ramai orang cakap you ada perempuan lain belakang I. Tapi I tak percaya tu semua sebab I kenal sayang I macam mana, I tahu you takkan buat macam tu. Ramai cakap kita sesuai jadi best friend saja. Tapi I kept telling myself that we're meant for each other. Ramai suruh I tinggalkan you. Tapi I cakap I can't leave you because I've promised you. Ramai cakap banyak lagi lelaki lain untuk I kat luar tu. Tapi I cakap takkan ada orang yang faham aku, takkan ada orang yang nak kat aku macam Nik. Ramai cakap Nik = Dickhead. Tapi I cakap, you don't know him and don't even say that words. Ramai cakap Nik dah tak sayang kau, Kecik. Tapi I senyum lepas tu I cakap, Only God knows whats in Nik's heart. Ramai cakap ex kau yang lain lagi better dari Nik. Tapi I cakap, he is the best thing I ever had.

And sayang, for your information it hurts when you ignore me.

Aku tak tau everytime aku dengar nama That Girl, aku sakit hati. Maybe dulu Nik dengan dia pernah ada something something. Erghhhhh. Can't stop thinking bout that.

Stop texting? Okay boleh tahan lagi

Jarang call? Okay masih sabar lagi

Pretending offline? Sabar jugak