2011, New Year

Hi mr. blog

It's new year right now. Yeah, it's 2011 :) So, my new year resolution is to forget the past and move on. Hm. I can't lie to myself. I can't move on plus I didn't want to move on. I have to lied to him. I said,

'I don't have any feelings towards you anymore and I stopped hoping on you'

He didn't said anything not even a single word. Maybe he'd say in his mind,

'God, you finally hear me!'

Or maybe,

'Finally she realised!'

Hmphhhhhh. I don't know. I just, hmmm. So, I leaving this Sunday to Mantin. National Service! :D I'll be away for 3 months. Don't miss me. Hahahaha. Sometimes, I think that this National Service is one of ways to forget him. Do you got what I trying to said? Yeah, that's my point! Exactly! So, I'm done with packing, all the stuff that I need to bring along and I didn't bring my cell phone along. I'll left it here. With this, I hope that I'll forget him. Slowly. Shit. I guess, that's it. Gonna smoke some cigarettes before I go to bed. Chioooooooow

No more braces

Hello Mr. Blog

Miss me? Oh, you better do or else I'm gonna cut you into tiny little pieces hiks ;) I have no idea what to bitch about. Haaa, based on my title I'm no longer wearing braces. Hehehe. But I have to wear this thingy called, 'Retainer'. I have to wear it like every day? It's kinda awkward actually. I wore them for almost three years man! Can you imagine how I live my days without them? God, I miss 'em :'( *Cmon bitch, baru satu hari kot kau tak pakai dah kecoh -___-

Okay, my bad. Anna's here! I mean, yeah here in Ampang. She called me but I left my cell phone. I was at Kak Long's house. Mummy said that Nadya came to house this evening, so I called Nadya. But then, Anna picked up the phone. I was like,

'Annaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!'

She just laughed. Moron. Hahahaha. Gonna meet her soon. Or maybe, we'd hangout together tomorrow. Or naahhhh, just wait for tomorrow lah. Mr. Blog, I was thinking to dye my hair. Not all of it, just a little. Alaaa, dekat bawah je. And I thought red color would be nice. Just like Linda Jasmine's hair. God! I adore her hair! Totally! Oh yeah, I bought myself a novel. A very nice novel. It's called 'A Perfect Stranger' written by Danielle Steel. This is my first time I read her novel and oh my God, I fell in love with it. And guess what? I bought it for 8 bucks. Hahahahahaha. Can't believe it right? Enough telling you my shit. I'm gonna have my shower. I'm sweating like a dog now. Erghhh. Chiow

Too sad

Hi Mr. Blog,

I just found out that Danial likes someone else (I stalked his Facebook). How can be worst than that huh? Guess, all the words that he said to me three days ago was nothing but a lie. He's really into that girl. She's got a boyfriend already but Danial said,

'Like I fucking care!'

He IM with his friend, Mira. He told Mira everything. When does he started to like that girl, how he wants that girl. How could he did this to me? What I've been fighting for three months is hopeless. I'm too depressed now. Hmphh. I'm gonna have my dinner now. After that, errr, tidur lah kot. Nothing to do. Seriously, lifeless gila. My life started to bored me. Damn. Adios

Feels like telling you a story tonight

Hey Mr. Blog.

I can't sleep. In fact, I didn't feel sleepy at all. It's just thought of Danial makes me not to go to bed earlier tonight. Makes me wanna write to you something, to share with you about him. I just can't stop thinking, saying or even write about him. It's kinda like addiction to me. Sometimes, I wonder, am I obsessed with Nik Danial? Damn! -___-

First, I met him at my sister's wedding. He's kinda snobbish that time. He had flu when the first time we've met. Hahaha it's kinda funny actually seeing him shy with those running nose. He's cute, like seriously okay. We're smoking together but we didn't talked that much. About one month after that, he added me on Facebook, and I was like,

'Eh mamat ni bukan kawan abang ke? Alah, approve jelah.'

Four months later, me and my family went to Bagan Lalang, celebrating Eid there. I uploaded some of my pictures and there's one picture of mine wearing a bikini. That night, I met Kk in front of my house and I updated my status as soon as Kk left, which is,

'Alahhhh, rindu lagi :('

And I didn't expect that he would commented my status. From there, we started to know each other. He started to Im me on Facebook. Chat untill the sun came out. Hahaha, it's kinda sweet actually. Then, after chatting about two or three days, he asked for my number and I gave it to him. We texted each other everyday and he even called me every night. About a week, we went for a breakfast. Hahaha. It's awkward, having my breakfast in front of him. Makan pun cover cover. Hahahaha. Kelakar.

Few weeks after that, we met at Setiawangsa, he gave me sort of love letter and a shirt. He told me about his feeling in the letter that he gave. But I was that damn blur, I didn't get what his mean. So I was like,

'Alah, dia bagi surat bukannya apa pun.'

I started to like him. Okay, I admit, I like him since the first time I saw him which was on my sister's wedding. Right now, I started to fell in love with him but I didn't tell him about it. On 24th September 2009, I called him at the middle of the night, and I told him about my feelings towards him,

'I nak bagitahu you something'
'What?'
'I like you'
'I like you too'

Both of us can't stop laughing after we confessed. Hahahaha. On his birthday, I'm officially his girlfriend. God, when I recall this thing, I smile for no reason. But time flies away. We broke up on our 10th anniversary. And now, we trying to get back together. Just wished me luck. I don't want to lose him anymore. Three months without him it's like a hell to me. He said to me three nights ago,

'Remember what I promised you, b? I will make it up to you'

And you know what? Since the first time we've been a couple, he knew when ever I'm lying, he knew whenever I'm telling him the truth. I even tried to lied to him but it's hopeless. He knows bout it.

'You're such a bad liar. We've been knowing each other about a year ago. I knew when you're lying, I even knew when you're telling me the truth'

I must say, I couldn't lie to him even once cause he knows -___- Hahaha. Anyway, I know that both of us had been suffered after we broke up but I guess, it's all worth it. That three months showed us that both of us can't live without each other. Thank you so much. Last but not least, I love you.