No more braces

Hello Mr. Blog

Miss me? Oh, you better do or else I'm gonna cut you into tiny little pieces hiks ;) I have no idea what to bitch about. Haaa, based on my title I'm no longer wearing braces. Hehehe. But I have to wear this thingy called, 'Retainer'. I have to wear it like every day? It's kinda awkward actually. I wore them for almost three years man! Can you imagine how I live my days without them? God, I miss 'em :'( *Cmon bitch, baru satu hari kot kau tak pakai dah kecoh -___-

Okay, my bad. Anna's here! I mean, yeah here in Ampang. She called me but I left my cell phone. I was at Kak Long's house. Mummy said that Nadya came to house this evening, so I called Nadya. But then, Anna picked up the phone. I was like,

'Annaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!'

She just laughed. Moron. Hahahaha. Gonna meet her soon. Or maybe, we'd hangout together tomorrow. Or naahhhh, just wait for tomorrow lah. Mr. Blog, I was thinking to dye my hair. Not all of it, just a little. Alaaa, dekat bawah je. And I thought red color would be nice. Just like Linda Jasmine's hair. God! I adore her hair! Totally! Oh yeah, I bought myself a novel. A very nice novel. It's called 'A Perfect Stranger' written by Danielle Steel. This is my first time I read her novel and oh my God, I fell in love with it. And guess what? I bought it for 8 bucks. Hahahahahaha. Can't believe it right? Enough telling you my shit. I'm gonna have my shower. I'm sweating like a dog now. Erghhh. Chiow

Too sad

Hi Mr. Blog,

I just found out that Danial likes someone else (I stalked his Facebook). How can be worst than that huh? Guess, all the words that he said to me three days ago was nothing but a lie. He's really into that girl. She's got a boyfriend already but Danial said,

'Like I fucking care!'

He IM with his friend, Mira. He told Mira everything. When does he started to like that girl, how he wants that girl. How could he did this to me? What I've been fighting for three months is hopeless. I'm too depressed now. Hmphh. I'm gonna have my dinner now. After that, errr, tidur lah kot. Nothing to do. Seriously, lifeless gila. My life started to bored me. Damn. Adios

Feels like telling you a story tonight

Hey Mr. Blog.

I can't sleep. In fact, I didn't feel sleepy at all. It's just thought of Danial makes me not to go to bed earlier tonight. Makes me wanna write to you something, to share with you about him. I just can't stop thinking, saying or even write about him. It's kinda like addiction to me. Sometimes, I wonder, am I obsessed with Nik Danial? Damn! -___-

First, I met him at my sister's wedding. He's kinda snobbish that time. He had flu when the first time we've met. Hahaha it's kinda funny actually seeing him shy with those running nose. He's cute, like seriously okay. We're smoking together but we didn't talked that much. About one month after that, he added me on Facebook, and I was like,

'Eh mamat ni bukan kawan abang ke? Alah, approve jelah.'

Four months later, me and my family went to Bagan Lalang, celebrating Eid there. I uploaded some of my pictures and there's one picture of mine wearing a bikini. That night, I met Kk in front of my house and I updated my status as soon as Kk left, which is,

'Alahhhh, rindu lagi :('

And I didn't expect that he would commented my status. From there, we started to know each other. He started to Im me on Facebook. Chat untill the sun came out. Hahaha, it's kinda sweet actually. Then, after chatting about two or three days, he asked for my number and I gave it to him. We texted each other everyday and he even called me every night. About a week, we went for a breakfast. Hahaha. It's awkward, having my breakfast in front of him. Makan pun cover cover. Hahahaha. Kelakar.

Few weeks after that, we met at Setiawangsa, he gave me sort of love letter and a shirt. He told me about his feeling in the letter that he gave. But I was that damn blur, I didn't get what his mean. So I was like,

'Alah, dia bagi surat bukannya apa pun.'

I started to like him. Okay, I admit, I like him since the first time I saw him which was on my sister's wedding. Right now, I started to fell in love with him but I didn't tell him about it. On 24th September 2009, I called him at the middle of the night, and I told him about my feelings towards him,

'I nak bagitahu you something'
'What?'
'I like you'
'I like you too'

Both of us can't stop laughing after we confessed. Hahahaha. On his birthday, I'm officially his girlfriend. God, when I recall this thing, I smile for no reason. But time flies away. We broke up on our 10th anniversary. And now, we trying to get back together. Just wished me luck. I don't want to lose him anymore. Three months without him it's like a hell to me. He said to me three nights ago,

'Remember what I promised you, b? I will make it up to you'

And you know what? Since the first time we've been a couple, he knew when ever I'm lying, he knew whenever I'm telling him the truth. I even tried to lied to him but it's hopeless. He knows bout it.

'You're such a bad liar. We've been knowing each other about a year ago. I knew when you're lying, I even knew when you're telling me the truth'

I must say, I couldn't lie to him even once cause he knows -___- Hahaha. Anyway, I know that both of us had been suffered after we broke up but I guess, it's all worth it. That three months showed us that both of us can't live without each other. Thank you so much. Last but not least, I love you.

This is Ainil Sofia. I called her Pya. We've known for almost a year ago without meeting each other. Hahaha that's funny tho. We just met on last Thursday. Watched movie, had lunch together, laughing like crazy people, kutuk kutuk orang lain hahahaha, babbling all the way from Klcc to Pavilion. Damn, I had so much fun with her. When will we meet again? I miss her so much man!

Hi Mr. Blog

Sorry cause I didn't post any shit to you. So sorry bout that. I finished my SPM already and the most fucked up thing is, I'll be in National Service for three fucking months. I'll be in hell for three 'awesome' months -____- Daaaa, what so ever. Okay, where should we start? Ummm, aha! Starts with this Psycho Freak Guy. His name is Haziq. I met him on Facebook. Well, at first he seems to be nice, charming and fucking talkative. After knowing him for about 3 weeks I guess, he's attitude changed. He became more psycho, in fact he's the most psycho guy I've ever known. Luckily we didn't meet yet. Phewwwwww.

Oh yeah, I called Danial last two days. He confessed every single thang~ And I was like, okay can someone slap me or stab me with a knife? Cause I can't believe what he said! Hahaha. I'm so excited okaaaaaay. Seems like he wanted to get us back like before but I can't be so sure bout that, am I? Ummm, but I still remember what he said to me that night.

"God, I miss you so much b"

Walawehhhhhhh, cair mak dengar~ Hahahahaha. And, I've made my mind, I left Haziq just to be with Danial. That's my final choice. Now, just wait and see ;)

Hi Mr. Blog

Didn't go to school today. I'm listening to Hey Soul Sister by Train and it reminds me of Nik Danial. Gosh, I miss him. Haaaaa, Twilight nak keluar! Wehuuuuu. Nak tengok nak tengok. Usher came to Malaysia yesterday. Shitttttttttttt! Nak tengok Usher. Time aku nak SPM ni la semua orang sibuk nak datang Malaysia. Apasal tak nak buat concert next year je? Kan senang. World Stage entah aku boleh pergi ke tidak. Confirm la kan aku tak boleh pergi. I'm gonna have my breakfast now. Chiow.


p/s : I STILL HEART GERMANY! IT'S OKAY TO LOSE TO SPAIN.

Hi Mr. Blog

Tadi masa balik sekolah my mum tak ambil. So terpaksa la jalan kaki balik rumah. Masa balik tu, singgah sekejap dekat mak cik depan sekolah rendah. Beli ice cream. Hehehe. Tengah syok makan ice cream tu, suddenly hujan pulak. Lagi best. Memang best la kan mandi hujan sambil makan ice cream. Hahaha. Boyfie texted me last night tapi aku tak reply pun dia message. Hm yela kan, makan hati dengan dia. Biarkan jela. Harini tuition Chemistshit pula. Erghh. Eh, but it's okay because I'll meet Farouk at tuition today! Hahahahahahaha ye gatal. Aku tahu. Susah nak ubah perangai lama. Hihi.

Hi hello blog

Haven't blogging since err last few weeks right? Well, I don't know what to blogging about. My life is sick. Nothing interesting except my wonderful family, understanding friends and yeah, lovely boyfriend. Erk? I told Kak Long bout my relationships. He seems like um I don't know how to explain to you Mr. Blog. Pya went to Perak other day as she further her studies there. Kak Long had moved to new house. No more Melati after this and I bet it'll be more difficult to seeing Nik Danial after this. Plus, he'll further his studies this month. Um I bet he'll be busy right? Tettt!

Gonna start study group with my babes tomorrow. Finally and I think that's good for me seems like trial for SPM is just around the corner. Ergh. Oh yeah, Niya turns 3 months tomorrow and she's almost 7 kilograms! Geeee, shocked isn't it ;)

I should have my nap right now as I have my tuition at night. Zzzzz. Adios amigos

Hi, Hello, Hey

I'm at Bebear's house right now. Just picked Mama from her office then stop by here. Hihi ambil kesempatan untuk online sekejap kan. Mama dengan Along tengah berborak sambil mengumpat haha. Didn't go to school for two days as I had my PMS. Nice. Or the best word for it is, Fuck. Yeah. Oh, I won two tickets for MTV World Stage!! Bebear juga menang tiket tu. Aku tolong dia. Hihi. I ingat nak ajak Nik as well. Yela kan sebab dia minat Wonder Girls. Erk? Kinda weird isn't it? Katy Perry, Tokio Hotel and Bunkface will perform that day. Semua Nik minat. Except for Bunkface. Tapi aku rasa dia minat jugak Bunkface. Hahaha kantoi disitu. Better stop now. Nak balik rumah dah. Chiowwww

This song was on air that time. We were laying in his bed.

Him : B, I love you

Me : *remains silent*

Him : B! I love you! *screaming*

Me : Ah! I hate you!

Him : Hate that I love you kan? I tau dah hahahahahaha

Me : Dah diam kau yang

Hi, Hello

I'm at Along's house right now. I kat sini sampai hari Rabu and on wednesday I'm going to Gombak. Hehehe spend time with my love. I'm going to his house, lepaking there la kan. Plus, dia off that day so okay la. Spend time lama lama dengan dia ;)

Not smoking Marlboro Menthol anymore. I'm only smoke Sampoerna at the moment. Yeah, jadi macam dulu balik. Hahaha

This is my confession

Nik Danial Maliq is the first guy that I kissed! Like seriously. Although he is not my first love, but he's my first kissed. All this time, I save my kiss only for the right guy. I guess, he's the one eh no no he is the right guy for me. Woihh malu kot. Hahaha

I just wanna let you guys know, Nik texted me few hours ago

'B! Tadi gombak menang 5-4'

Hahahahahaha tunggu je la b hadiah kau tu. Tak lama lagi I bagi. Oh yeah, ayah bought me a perfume teheeeeeeee it's not a branded one well I didn't mind at all as long as perfume tu wangi then okay ah! Hahaha finally, I dah beli baju yang I nak tu. Jyeahhhhhhhhh! Eh, I nak pergi smoking kejap. One whole day kot I tak smoke. Erghhhhh. Chiowwwww

Hi, hello

I'm at Batu Pahat right now. Bebear tak balik Johor pulak so aku macam mati akal kejap. Macam hape je. I called Nik so many times today. He didn't pick up. He's busy I guess. At first, Syafiq yang picked up dia cakap Nik dekat bank bayar apa entah. I macam, okay nanti Akak call balik.

Sampai Batu Pahat, aku call dia lagi. He didn't answer so, okay la maybe dia mandi ke pergi ambil Mummy ke or etc la. Dalam pukul 9 lebih macam tu, I called him again. Masuk voice mail hmphhh lagi la aku macam hampa. Then I texted him,

'Kalau Gombak menang futsal, u dapat hadiah, from me. Love you'

Received pulak. Maybe dekat sini tak ada coverage la kot. Aku tidur sekejap. Around 12 something aku terjaga. Makan roti sekejap lepas tu terus call dia. Finally, dia angkat! Tapi, hm dia dah tidur time tu.

'B, tidur ke?'

'Haah'

'Oh, tak apa lah. U tidur la. Tak nak kacau u'

'Ala cakap je la. Tak apa'

'Takpe la, u tidur je la'

'Love you'

'Love you too'

Thanks for being the greatest thing in my life. Thanks for the love that you gave to me. Thanks because you taught me how to be a better person. Thanks for being there for me when I need shoulder to cry on. Thanks for making me laugh and cry in the same time. Thanks for taking my breath away whenever you're near me. Thanks for making me jealous sometimes and believe me, you're good in it. Thanks because you wake me up with a kiss on my lips when I fell asleep while you're driving. Thanks for holding my hand when we across the road. Thanks for everything. What could be better than having you in my life?

I just love you too much.

I can't stop saying bout you! I even gets blushed when I look at your picture!

I know sometimes I acting like a child. One more thing sayang, I don't care if you wanna flirt behind my back because I know by the end of the day, I'm still the only girl that takes your heart away. But I know you very well. You wouldn't do that because I believe in you :)

You know what? Hahaha wanna know a secret? My baby ni sebenarnya macam budak budak. Hahaha seriously. Sangat cepat terasa and kuat merajuk. Hahahahaha god, bila I baca balik message dia malam tadi I gelak sorang sorang. Before he text me, kita orang IM sekejap dekat Facebook. You look sooooooooooo cute when you're sulking ;)

Yesterday

23:06Nik

keluar kl tak ajak!!!!!! :(

23:06Me

lah yang

ibu baru ckp dgn i kot pagi tadi nk keluar kl

haaa

i ikut jela

jap, mana tau?

23:07Nik

bgtau jelah i kan habis kerja kul 3

tak mcm ramai plak kaum keluar arini

23:07Me

i balik pukul 1 lebih yang

oh hehehe yeh?

23:08Nik

hmm

takpelah

23:08Me

alahhhhhhh

jgn ah mcm ni

23:09Me

yang?

23:09Nik

ye?

23:10Me

esok ptg i balik johor

23:11Nik

oh ok

take care lah

23:11Me

sampai habis cuti sekolah

23:11Nik

hmm yelah

siapa nak jumpa i pun

23:12Me

yang

jgn la mcm ni

mcm la ada org nk jumpa i jugak kan

23:12Nik

i nak sgt jumpa u b

i tggu off day je

off day i dah dkt

tapi u nak blk jb

i mean jhr

23:13Me

u off bila?

23:13Nik

cukup 7 hari kerja dpt ah cuti

i dah 5 hari kerja

23:14Me

on sunday la u off?

23:15Nik

sabtu or jumaat

gitu lah

baru ingat nak lepak ngan u ke

but u r goin back

so its ok

23:15Me

hm

alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

tak nak ah balik johor

23:16Nik

takpe b

i tak kisah

i memang selalu kalau plan mesti ada something yg block

23:18Me

jgn mcm ni b

pls

yang

jgn off tau

kejap

23:18Nik

i nak mandi jap

baru lepas workout

23:22Me

okay

23:22Nik

rumah i jadi rumah muay thai kesian

hahaha

23:22Me

muay thai kesian?

ade lak?

23:23Nik

i ikat bantal kat tembok i bedal

hilang stress

23:24Me

jadik pulak mcm tu?

haha

i tak nak balik johor ah

malas

23:26Nik

u nak stay mana?

23:27Me

hmm tah

kata nak mandi

23:27Nik

hehe

ok i mandi jap

Dah la psycho, bajet bagus pulak tu. Dah tu, sebok pulak nak cari gaduh dengan segala umat Nabi Adam dalam dunia ni -_____-

Today, aku dah bangun awal pagi sebab nak ikut ibu pergi KLCC hantar barang Klife tu. After dah jumpa orang tu, then dah bayar duit semua kitorang pergi food court. Melantak ah kan tapi aku tak makan -___- huahaha. I texted Nadya sebab dia pun ada kat KLCC that time. Cam nak meet up kejap la kan even rumah dia dengan aku dekat nak mampus. Hahaha well, kata BFF ;p Ok, continue. Actually Nadya pergi tengok movie dengan Kak Bel. Aku cakap ah dengan dia, aku tunggu dia kat 1901. Aku pun tunggu la dia sorang sorang sambil pusing kanan pusing kiri. Hahahaha.

Dah syok pusing pusing cuci mata, sekali nampak sorang mamat ni macam Syafiq. Aku buat tak reti jela plus aku kan rabun. Hm hm. Suddenly, ada orang jerit,

'Lynnnnnnnnn!'

Aku dah cam, woih sape pulak panggil nama aku. Sekali tengok, Abang aku -___- So lepak ah kejap dengan dia and Syafiq. Aku nampak Syafiq pakai jam Nik. Aku pun dengan selambanya cakap ah,

'Tu jam Abang Dann kan? Meh jap, akak nak.'

Syafiq bukak lepas tu dia bagi dekat aku. Aku cakap lagi,

'Kalau Abang Dann tanya, cakap jam dia dekat akak tau'

Syafiq pun,

'Ha yela kak'

Hahaha entah Nik tahu ke tak jam dia kat aku. Biarkan je la. Biarkan dia menggelupur cari jam dia. Kalau dia nak, dia amik sendiri kat aku. Hahahaha baru boleh jumpa kan? ;)

According to Nik, I'm the worst liar. Well, em em that's true -___-

Last night I was so down when my old friend told me bout Nik. Seriously, dia cakap

'Aku bukan nak hancurkan rumah tangga kau tapi time Nik dengan Nisa tu, macam ni la dia buat. Jarang contact semua. Last last Nik tu tinggalkan Nisa time trial. Nisa tu nasib baik time trial. Kau tak pasal pasal kena tinggal time SPM'

Aku pun dah macam mak aii sumpah cuak gila takut dia dump aku. Aku dah la sayang dia bagai nak mati ni. Then, aku tengok Pya online. So, aku pun mengadu dekat dia. Sebab dia je yang kenal Nik. I told her yang aku takut Nik tinggalkan aku macam mana Nik buat dekat Nisa. Then, Pya cerita la pasal Nisa tu dekat aku. Lepas Pya cerita, barulah aku lega sikit. Thanks Pya. Sumpah kalau you tak ada semalam, I tak tahu nak buat apa. Maybe sampai harini la kot I down. Haha.

Sorry sayang sebab I fikir bukan bukan.

I just opened my formspring just now. And I found this question.

do u still love nik? do u still think that he is the one for u? why u let him down? he's giving up.. pls dont let him down

i still love him. always love him. he is the one for me. it's my fault cause i let him down. if he's giving up on me, i guess the best way is well you know what. btw, i hate this kind of question

You may asked that question anonymously but baby, i tahu cara u taip macam mana. You may fool the others but not me. I know you very well yang. I tahu you yang tanya soalan ni sebab masa ni kita tengah complicated gila kan? And you need answer right? But, alhamdulillah kita still stick together and I'm thankful for that.

I remember what you wore on the first day

Answer : U pakai baju melayu warna kelabu

You came into my life and I thought 'Hey you know this could be something'

Answer : Yeah memang pun. I fall in love with you since our first met

Oh god, I can't sleep la weh. I have insomnia -___- I don't know what to do right now so I decided to update my blog A-G-A-I-N. Aku baru je lepas ym dengan Pya. Oh yeah, Pya is Anep's girlfriend while Anep is Nik's friend. Hahaha ha macam tu ah. She said that she misses Anep. Ye ah, Anep kat Mekah buat umrah. Alolololo. Kesian Pya rindu Anep eh? Nanti i bawak you pergi jumpa dia eh? Hahahahaha.

Ha, I just thought maybe on school holiday ni nak pergi jumpa Nik. Dekat rumah dia la. Nak buat suprise kat dia. Hehehe. But, currently he's working kan. Hmphhh. Kena cari the right time la kalau nak pergi pun. Alah yang, rindu sial kat you. I selalu baca all your messages, our conversation kat ym. Semua ah. Gambar you. Rindunyaaaaa :'(

Oh shit! I haven't told you right? I baru bukak profile my ex, Zen tu. Lepas tu, I baca ah wall post Yozo kat wall dia. Guess what? Zen wants me back! Weh sumpah scary kot. Ye ah, in one year semua ex aku cari aku balik. Mana tak scary sampai naik semua bulu kan? Plus, dia cakap terang terang kot kat wall post dia tu. Menyesal gila aku call dia malam tu. Aku call just nak tanya how is he, life dia okay ke tak. Tak sangka pulak jadi macam ni. Kalau Nik tahu ni, mati aku. Nik pernah cakap dekat aku macam ni,

'Semua ex kau cari kau balik kan? Huh'

Hmphh bukan salah aku. Aku tak nak pun kat ex aku tu.

Hello, Hi

Just came back from Penang. T-I-R-E-D. I'm at mama's house right now. Gonna have my dinner here. Oh yeah, Nik got a job! Happy for him. Tak kisah la kerja apa, janji kerja kan? Ibu bought me a pink kebaya for this Eid. Hahahaha kebaya? Ok lah. Eh chiow, my roti boom is waiting! Byebye

I just fed up with Nik. Seriously. Pastu tadi, dah fed up dengan dia tu sempat jugak tengok page dia. Tengok gambar dia. He still wear my necklace. Nak nangis! Rasa bersalah gila kat dia. Yela selalu fikir benda bukan bukan. Kalau dia tahu ni, mati aku kena dengan dia. I'll off to Penang tomorrow for 3 days! Wehuuu! I won't tell Nik that I'm off to Penang tomorrow. Biarkan dia cari aku pulak.

Kalau kau baca ni, I macam dah fed up. Asyik I je cari you. Dah macam orang bodoh pun ada. You tak tau apa kawan kawan I cakap. I dengar, I yang sakit hati sampai nak menangis sebab perangai you yang ignore I ni. Apa salah I sebenarnya? Nak cakap I berubah? Well hello Nik Danial, you started it first. You didn't give me your attention anymore. You berubah since you balik from Taipan. I repeat, YOU'VE CHANGED A LOT SINCE YOU CAME BACK FROM TAIPAN. Dah tu, you cakap I pulak yang berubah. I macam orang gila tunggu you punya call, text bagai. Kalau you takde credit tu I faham la. Ni kalau online pun, apa salahnya kalau you IM I? I cried so many nights because of you. Almost every single fucking night. Yet, I still love you. I just need the old you. Maybe you dah bosan dengan I kan? Yeah, I know that.

Ramai orang cakap you ada perempuan lain belakang I. Tapi I tak percaya tu semua sebab I kenal sayang I macam mana, I tahu you takkan buat macam tu. Ramai cakap kita sesuai jadi best friend saja. Tapi I kept telling myself that we're meant for each other. Ramai suruh I tinggalkan you. Tapi I cakap I can't leave you because I've promised you. Ramai cakap banyak lagi lelaki lain untuk I kat luar tu. Tapi I cakap takkan ada orang yang faham aku, takkan ada orang yang nak kat aku macam Nik. Ramai cakap Nik = Dickhead. Tapi I cakap, you don't know him and don't even say that words. Ramai cakap Nik dah tak sayang kau, Kecik. Tapi I senyum lepas tu I cakap, Only God knows whats in Nik's heart. Ramai cakap ex kau yang lain lagi better dari Nik. Tapi I cakap, he is the best thing I ever had.

And sayang, for your information it hurts when you ignore me.

Aku tak tau everytime aku dengar nama That Girl, aku sakit hati. Maybe dulu Nik dengan dia pernah ada something something. Erghhhhh. Can't stop thinking bout that.

Stop texting? Okay boleh tahan lagi

Jarang call? Okay masih sabar lagi

Pretending offline? Sabar jugak

1. I haven't stalk his page almost for a week. Yeay! Congrats Azlyn.

2. This mid year examination is so so so so so fucktup I tell you.

3. 6 months already with Nik Danial on 19th May

4. My mum kept blaming me for nothing. Thanks Ibu and right now, I'm so stressful.

5. I have to gained W E I G H T

I NEED ALCOHOL

kak long cepat la habes pantang. erghhhh

I miss the way you kiss me. i miss the warmth of your body. the way we kiss in the car. the way we make out in the car. all those memories. all the feelings when we're together. i miss the way we used to be. the way you touch me. the way you stare at me. the way you pulled me up to you and kissed my lips. when we're swam together, i miss that. your laugh, your smile, the scent of you, everything bout you. i just miss that. just remember one thing, no matter what happen i still love you like before. i promise you it'll never change even for a second. it keeps growing every minute, every hour, everyday. i can't resists you. don't ever let me go. don't say that im changed because trust me it hurts when you say that.

love,

Azlyn

he said im changed. plus, dia buat complicated relationship with me at facebook. well, how fucktup is that? aku dok fikir ape salah aku kat dia. im so sad with this shit.

If i was a rich girl,

I wonder why rich people loves to show off? Okay kitorang tau la kau tu kaya tapi perlu ke tangkap gambar dengan your gun, your money, bla bla bla. For sure nampak cam aku ni jealous ape lancau lagi la but naaahhhh. Aku tak jealous sebab dia kaya or sebab aku shot dengan dia etc, aku benci sebab perangai dia yang nampak terlalu show off. Yeah, I know tu dia punya hak. Tapi entah la aku benci. Hahaha

Probably, I'm the only one who thinks like that. It's my opinion la. Aku tau she's very 'humble' girl. Yea yea what ever

abc,

I don't know what the hell is going on between Nik and me. pantang chat sikit, ada je benda nak gaduh. oh yeah, i'm getting fat. seriously. perut dah cam buncit sikit. huahaha. but, i have to work out because on July, i'll off to Langkawi for 4 days. wehuuuuuu! the reason i have to work out is, ehem nak pakai bikini so kena la badan cun sikit. hahaha. target : nak body cam Nicole. shit! her body is freaking hot! tunggu ah aku ada body cam Nicole. perghhh. hahahhaa ;)

love,

MaryJane

things got way complicated than you can ever imagine. life sucks. jyeah i mean it okay? fought with boyfriend, takde duit, study, SPM, erghhhhh. macam macam hal lagi. aku kena kencing hidup hidup. lagi cam kimak en. ahahaha. dah bye. tu je. malas nak taip bebanyak

nik baru lepas call. dia sakit hati dengan aku rupanya. hmph. erghhhh shit. i've told kak long bout this. she said,

'cara kau cakap dengan dia tu. memang la dia ingat kau hina dia. padahal kau takde niat pun. dia fikir lain tapi kau maksudkan lain. kau kena faham tu. msg la dia. cakap kat dia benda yang betul. jangan sampai dia ingat kau ni mata duitan. kejar duit dia je.'

aku dengan egonya cakap,

'kalau dia kenal aku, dia takkan ingat aku ni kejar harta dia. aku tak nak pun tu semua. aku tak pandang.'

okay, i admit. memang salah aku. tah la. memang aku kasar. tak boleh nak ubah benda tu. cara cakap aku memang totally erghhh. aku je yang paham. orang lain memang selalu sangat misunderstand dengan cara aku cakap. aku maksudkan lain, tapi orang ingat lain. haih. tengok sekarang, ape dah jadi. fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Sape rasa dia cute, angkat tangan!

Teringat time kat Melaka. Hahahaha. Serious best gila. Dengan Nadya, Kak Bel and Along. Balik memalam la, tengok Battle Of The Band la. Haishh. Sumpah best gila wa cakap lu. Enjoy je kat sane. Tu first time pegi jejauh dengan Nadya. Hahaha bila nak pegi jejauh lagi tah ah. Takpe. Lepas SPM, insya-Allah aku ada lesen. Kelisa ibu aku rembat, jom kita pegi vacation! Ahahahaha ;)

I'm your biggest fan!

Him : B i nak stop
Me : Stop? Stop ape? Smoking? Bagus la tu
Him : Stop working
Me : Ha? Apesal? Give me 5 good reasons
Him : Naa, I just feel bad. That's it
Me : Cmon sayang. Kenapa you nak benti? You tak suka dengan kerja you ke?
Him : Bcoz I feel bad. That's why sayang. I can't carry on with it anymore. I feel very guilty.
Me : Guilty? Dekat sape?
Him : You. I miss you alot. It's not right with what I'm doing now
Me : B, pls. Think about yourself first. Kan I ckp I okay. You shouldn't feel guilty. Orang kerja, mmg la busy sayang. I faham b.
Him : But I'm working too long. Kesian you. I should change to other work. Yang tak lama timing dia
Me : Ya Allah, takpe la b. I tak kisah pun. I faham you keje.
Him : I tau you kisah. I'm sorry.
Me : Macam kenal je ayat tu. I tak kisah la sayang.
Him : Ayat you ah. Takpe I nak benti jugak. Lama2 tak boleh. Lain jadi b
Me : Tau ayat I. Tak payah nak benti la b. Asal pulak lain jadi b? Cakap sikit
Him : Jauh satu. Keje lama sangat satu. Paling I tak boleh is I tak bagi you attention
Me : B, you keje jela. I okay. Betul
Him : Ah, takde. You nak ke macam ni lama2? I tak nak b
Me : Sape yang nak b? You cakap sikit. Tapi you keje sayang. I tak kisah pasal your attention. As long as you love me, then I'll be fine
Him : See, you pun tak nak. Okay, dah settle. Dapat gaji, I benti. Cari keje lain. Okay? Done
Me : You ni kan. Keje je la. Kan I cakap I okay
Him : Dah2, benda dah settle. We agreed that both of us don't want it to be like this. B, is there something fishy happens while I'm away?
Me : Sape cakap dah settle? Nope. Why?
Him : Yeke? Entah ah. Cara you macam tak nak I balik je
Me : Asal you cakap macam tu?
Him : Dah tu, I nak benti keje sebab I tak boleh jauh dengan you lama2. You cakap, takpe jangan stop. Keje je. Curious ah
Me : Ya Allah. Pasal tu je ke? Hahahahahahaha gelak aku yang
Him : Entah ah. Cara you lain. Makes me curious. I expect you happy dengar I cakap I nak benti. Entah
Me : You nak benti keje yang. You expect I nak happy sebab you nak benti keje? Haih
Him : Yelah, so that I can spend more time for you. Keje I yang sekarang ni lama sangat. Sampai belas2 jam. So asik busy je. My job as a bf pun tak boleh buat.
Me : Haih, b b. Kalau you nak benti, benti. I lagi suka actually. Then you nak keje ape?
Him : Gila tak ikhlas. Terpaksa. Takpe b. I tak tau apa2 but Tuhan tau. Entah, I cari ah pape
Me : Dah pulak? Aku cakap ikhlas ni. Boleh pulak you cakap I terpaksa. Haih. Jadi driver I. Mau?
Him : Tah ah b. Nanti I dah balik, tengok ah. B, I nak tido okay? Ngantok. Nite yang. I love you so much
Me : Okay, nite2 bb. Sweet dreams. Love you too baby


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1. Bukan aku tak suka dia benti, memang tu pun yang aku nak. Tapi dulu dia penah cakap dia tak sampai hati nak benti sebab boss dia baik sangat. So aku padamkan niat aku untuk hasut dia benti keje

2. For your information sayang, kalau you baca blog I la kan. Aku tak menjalang okay. I told you so many times, dulu memang la I macam tu. Pantang nampak jantan, start la I punya gatal tapi sekarang dah lain.

3. Trust your partner. That's the most important thing. So far, dia trust aku lagi. Alhamdulillah

4. Bukan aku nak cite kat satu dunia pasal I msg dengan you, or ape yg we talked about. I nak share je. *Tapi aku rasa dia tak tau aku ade blog baru sebab aku cakap aku dah delete blog ahahahaha*

5. I'm trying to be a good gf to him that support him whatever he's doing or he's decision or pape je ah

6. Burger mekdi aku dah panggil tu. Babai

Currently, Bebear kat Damansara. Dia kerja sana. Haih. Lepas sorang sorang. Serious shit 2010 sungguh fucktup. So far la. Oh yea, aku drop IT. Means, for SPM aku amik 8 subjects je la. Tu pun bagai nak rak jenuh gila babeng aku nak manage time. Dengan Add Math aku yang macam &%@$. Haihhh. Susah ah jadi form 5 ni. Memang schledule aku penuh. From Monday till Friday. Saturday and Sunday je dapat rileks sikit. Belah malam, tuition. Balik rumah, makan then tido. Pagi esok bangun pergi sekolah. Tu la rutin harian. Penatttttttttt. Dah ah, nak mandi jap. Nak pegi tuition kejap lagi. Babai

Currently,

My life sucks right now. Depan my babes boleh la gelak gelak bagai nak rak. Kat rumah, lain pulak situation dia. Dengan parents aku yang suruh aku mengadap buku 24 jam. Kena buat kerja rumah la. Family probs, bla bla bla. haihh. Nik pulak busy sangat lately. I miss him so much. Miss the way we used to be. I miss those days. Wish I could turned back time so we can spent more time together. He's not laughing anymore. Stress la kot, kerja kan? I tried to make him laugh but, haihhh. Entah la. Bila dapat jumpa aku pun tak tau. Dah ah, ngantok. Bye. Tak tido for one whole day ni. Night2. Silap, morning

i cried almost every night because i miss you so much. i kept thinking bout you. i dreamed of you last night. i can't carry this burden anymore. please come back. i need you here.

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Ali tido sini malam ni. hahaha dengan dia punya perut tu, gelak dia. ade je benda dia nak buat. hahaha thanks Ali sebab buat aku gelak + marah in the same time :)

Nik Mohd Danial

B, rindu you. Sumpah sial aku tak tipu. I tak tau nak cakap kat sape dah. You busy sangat lately ni. Yela, dah keje kan. Memang la. Hmphh. Never mind. Sekejap je kan :'(